Shifting

[Basilus West]

[Iluminada]

[Lanina]

Well, I "shift" very rarely.

Think about an "animal-person" like this:
Human----------------------------Other Specie

Normally, I'm like this
Human------------I---------------Wolf

Sometimes I'm more human, sometimes more wolf.
But when a "mental shift" occurs, it's something like this:
Human--------------------------I-Wolf

When I was a child, I liked to howl and to pretend to be different animals. I never had a problem accepting that the meat I ate to dinner had been a living animal earlier, unlike some kids I know.
When secret "friends' clubs" were popular when I was about 8-9, I was leader of the "wolf club". We had a hide-out, and we howled if we needed help. The other children howled because it sounded fun, but I took it very seriously.

I was really bored of "mother-father-child"-games, because I thought it was unintresting to pretend to be just a human. I wanted to be the family's pet.

[Aikho]

humans are boring, i was allways the pet too

Never had problems with meat either.
not even raw meat.. which most others do

[Wyvern]

I definately have the animal side but since figuring out the voices were a sickness I've been trying to deny and ignore this too but I can't. I still maintain the animal urges and feels at times but luckily no random attacks like in grade 3 and 6.

Maybe I'd have more control if I just let the feelings out.

[Tggtt]

Thanks kenay for helping me.. I was somewhat alone and you helped to make topic flowing!

But, I didn't get any revolting about being human like some of you did, That's what I'm fearing, hope you understand....

Please don't misunderstand me!(I'm talkin to the ones who came here lately)

(I tryied not to hurt them, I dunno if you understand it)

[Lanina]

[Tggtt]

[Aikho]

it amuses me that such a small number of persons have noticed you acting strange, i myself do what i can to ceep it back until im alone.. some day last week i belive i even looked for a place to hibernate, i was walking in the forest about 2km away from my school and my friends (which i was walking with) took off for a shorter route, i ended up away from the ski track, deep in the woods, looking between some small hills crawling around to find the best way to make it ready..

again, about the number of people noticing strange behavior with me, but i know my mother is starting to have a hitch about something, and my sister is getting closer to the meaning of therianthrope (i have deleted it from my nick on MSN of one soul purpouse) heh..

i dont really think we have to be one and that the other being (in my case a bear) is blended with my human side, it has its own way of making me feel like something else no matter what i do.. (must be making no sense now)

i recently had some odd daydream-like experiences, the only problem about them was that i was not daydreaming, but i was 100% wake, all of a sudden i saw the life of a bear cub unfold, but from its own eyes, not third person, i saw glimts of happenings that is usual for a bear cub, like feeding, play fighting, walking and stuff like that. it were like they happend right infront of my eyes, but it was just dimm enough that i could see what happend infront of me. i want it to happen again, it was very different from daydreaming, i got a beautiful feeling while watching it.

i could brag on for pages, but i dont like to type too much

[Tggtt]

That must be horrible, being discovered by so many people.
But I never got soo strange, and nothing to worry, my 2 friends, that noticed something strange, they think I was joking, because I do many jokes about anything

At least, 2 months later, I won a betting that I could get throught a avenue with eyes closed!! (Don't do it yourself, please!)

[Lanina]

[Tggtt]

putting that in your MSN nick is dramatic...

What do you think could happen denying it? I mean, I don't think you should get yourself fully acceptive! That's no sense to let all your feelings out!

And what about your parents thinking you are crazy?

[Draginvry]

[Wyvern]

I'll never tell my parents about this the same way I won't tell them I'm bisexual and the wrong gender. I've already told (well showed)my mom that I'm schizophrenic. I think that's enough.

If I were to tell my parents about shifting, they'd think I was delusional. Not that I can. The voices forbid me to do a lot of things. But that's another issue.

[Lanina]