Apparently I was sort of waking up, as I could hear my sister moving about getting ready for work. I really really didn’t want to wake up, seeing as I had woken shortly before that. I seem to ’see’ or feel her close the door to the bedroom, probably because of the light so I could sleep, and that’s where it gets freaky.(I’m thinking the closing the door thing was probably a way for the dream not to ’see’ what was outside my bedroom and realize the FA right away).
I’m -sure- I open my eyes. The room seems a bit of an odd shade of… darker than usual, but that’s not quite odd to me. I get up, though I don’t really remember doing so exactly. I see some money where I usually leave it on a drawer stand, but it’s not as I left it. Which is impossible considering I have OCD and the possition that was in would freak me out, as it was easily placed to drag and accidentally throw to the ground if someone bumped on the drawer stand.
Something tips me off, though I’m not sure what it is. I suddenly think I really need to make a reality check! So I look down at my hands and press a finger to my palm. I feel myself frown as the RC doesn’t quite work, BUT…… it feels weird. Different than when I did it IRL (as if the finger -wanted- to go through, but I wouldn’t let it, probably because it’d feel creepy). So I just look at my hands for a moment. Suddenly it seems to click on me. “Hey… my right hand has… ” and counting I got to nine fingers (I didn’t seem to be able to count by just looking the first time, so I had to touch each finger, probably because I didn’t want to believe my eyes). It freaked me out a little (specially when all ‘felt’ real), but it was just a split second, as I went “can’t be!” and looked again. Didn’t count, but it was obviously more than normal. Again: Six. Looked again. Five, but my left hand had seven. I decided it was better to stop looking, else I’d freak out again.
I looked at the money again, doubtful. I was still hesitating. Was I actually having a lucid dream?? I decided to test it out, but apparently a bill with coins on top of it was too big for me to move with my mind. I tried hand gestures to help (five fingers! I hope… ) and that didn’t help. So I tried with a 0.10 cents coin, which is fairly small, and I could move it with just my thought! I ended up getting the coins into place, but somehow the bill I wasn’t sure how to make move.
I decide to shrug that aside, and suddenly I’m standing -on- my bed.
I’m looking around, the room suddenly more bright in lightning. I’m like “Well! I took control of my dream! What the can I do now?!” I think… and think… and think…. and nothing comes to mind. What a waste!
So I decide to cut by the healthy. “Let’s summon someone.”
At saying that I swore I could hear my mom talking to someone outside the room, which is impossible considering she’s dead, and no one was home anyway to be having a conversation. I shake my ehad to that, which makes it go away, and think “she’s not the one I wanted to summon.”
I look before me and try with all my might to summon Gravel (a RP character of mine… hey, it’s a dream, he could perfectly well be there, and was the first that popped into my mind!). I try perhaps too hard, because I sense something, but nothing happens. I think “okay, maybe I can try to fly.” But knew that was a bit unlikely to happen on your first lucid dream. So instead I jump. Indeed the jump works as I had read some would on an RC. I slowly rose up, and hovered a bit in the air. It was freaking me out that I was taking a biiiit more than it was comfortable to me for going down, so I ‘made’ myself go back down. I remember the small feeling of starting to fall down, though just realized I was already standing after thinking it. Fairly cool.Creepy, but cool. I think what else to do, but no idea comes to mind anymore (not that it did before. Boy is it hard to think straight in your dreams).
Frustrated, and not knowing what to do, I went with the next most popular thing I read on ld4all: Sex. Sure, they said you’d more than likely wake up because of the feeling, but… maybe if I focused on that all else would change.
It did help. I thought “I’d like Gackt (the singer) to appear!” (first that popped into mind as I had been talking about him during the evening). Before I could finish saying it, I’m in some odd sort of public bathroom (with a really cool yellowish theme going on), and Gackt walks through the door! I’m like “What am I doing here? Oh, who cares. GACKT!”
Boy am I pathetic. Well, at this, a couple times already I had felt like I would wake up, so just in case I rubbed my hands toghether, at least 2-3 times by now… and it seemed to work as I kept dreaming.,… or maybe I wasn’t waking at all. Who knows?
Anyway…. I walk to gackt, and he seems to know me/be cool with me. In fact, he’s the one that’s all over me before I can try anything! Not that I’m complaining.
Halfway through trying to kiss me, his face changes to Hide (another singer I had been talking about the past evening). He was saying something on why was I pulling back and if I preferred Hide to him.
Oookay.
Eventually he (Gackt, looking like Gackt) pulls back, and Hide appears aswell. Now they both want to get down with me (but do nothing this time, we just talk a little), and I don’t want to, lol, damn dream fixated with me getting some.
Then a random old guy appears and moves to wash his hands, and we 3 are like “who the heck invited you?” and then his wife appears in what we -knew- was the man’s room and we looked at her aswell like that and like “What’s a woman doing HERE?” (Note: I -was- a woman/myself in this dream, so I don’t know what the point of that was… )
Well, I don’t really remember if something else happened. I know I rubbed my hands toghether somewhere through that and they didn’t think it was strange, heh. Not like it was cold or anything.
I decide I had enough of two J-rockers trying to get on my pants and since I don’t know what else to do with my dream I might aswell wake up. So, according to that, my dream changes back to my bedroom. I stand there, willing myself to wake up, but it won’t work! I freak out a little. I don’t want to dream anymore! (note that freak out means basically get a bit desperate/scared, but just stand there calmly and with a perplexed expression). I remember another thing said on the ld4all forums, and lay down in my bed to sleep. I try to will myself into waking up, but it won’t work.
I knew this wasn’t reality. Reality don’t swap places and certanly not change how many fingers you have. I close my eyes, which still doesn’t wake me… and after a moment I finally seem to drift off.
That’s when I open my eyes.
Boy was I relieved that I woke/upset that I wasted most of my LD.
Actually, rubbing my hands toghether in the dream hurted a little, for some reason. The rest of the feelings just felt real…. but odd. Particularly those made by RCs.