Warning, long post ahead!
Hi everybody,
I’ve had weird dreams the last two nights, and I really can’t figure out if they were lucid or not. I do know the “if you realized you were dreaming, you were lucid” rule, but I can’t remember if I realized or not!
My dream recall is usually quite bad, and I’m writing this just before dinner time, so the details are vague at this point.
I should also point out that I haven’t done any “preparations” for LDing, like having a dream diary, doing RCs during daytime or such, I’ve only read small amounts on the subject in the past (not in the last month).
Last (kinda) but not least, I’m currently taking two medications that often affect sleep; Cipralex (a SSRI type drug), which can among other things cause insomnia, and Xanor Depot (aka Xanax XR, a benzodiazepine), which often, and in my case, causes drowsiness/somnolence (sleeping lots, yet feeling tired daytime). Since I started with Xanor, 10 days ago, I’ve been sleeping a LOT, about 10-11 hours a night.
Anyway, on to the story/questions.
What I remember from the night before last night is not much at this point, but I remember looking at my hands (stretching the fingers, kinda like “jazz hands”), looking away, and then looking back. When I looked back, the fingers were all screwed up, pointing in all kinds of impossible directions. I don’t think I was scared, but I also can’t remember if I realized that it was a dream or not.
I remember a scene (where the hand thing happened), somewhere in the middle of the corridor of my old school. It was pretty dark, as if it was night, and I couldn’t see either end of the corridor as I recall, which you definately can do IRL since it’s completely straight.
The next day, I spent quite some time reading about lucid dreaming, pretty much right after breakfast. Why is this significant, you ask? Well, I don’t usually wake up and think about lucid dreaming, like I suppose lots of you “vets” do!
Onto last night. I don’t know if I did any RCs during the night, but I do remember some funky stuff, like trying telekinesis, which I don’t think I have ever dreamed about before (nor thought about IRL). I reached out with my hands and kind of stared at something, and it worked. I don’t remember what, or anything else… This was in the same scene as the previous night (in fact this memory might be from that night too).
I also remember some bits about trying to get to a girl I like. First, I thought about walking there, but it seemed it would take too long (probably about 15 minutes, IRL that is), I think I was afraid I’d wake up before I got there. So, I figured I needed a faster way. My next idea was to go by car. I don’t remember why but it didn’t work… I did get a car and I do know how to drive. Last thing I remember (I think it’s the last, anyway) is going there by bike, I remember being at a part perhaps 1/3 of the way there, and that’s my last memory.
So, could this have been, perhaps only partly, LDs? The reason(s) why I ask and don’t just accept these as regular dreams is the RC in the first dream which I’ve never dreamt about before, and that I felt more active, in a way… In a regular dream, I’m like an observer, but I felt I could “think” and possibly control my actions in these dreams.
As a bonus question, how do the rest of you “remember” LDs? Do you remember that you were lucid etc, or is it just like any old dream afterwards? I suppose the former, but I still gotta ask for some experiences!
Sorry for rambling on, and thanks to those who read the whole post!