Edit: Damn, this is a lot longer than I was expecting. Try to read it anyway though; I promise it will be worthwhile.
Ok so I’ve done a lot of personal mind exploration and experimentation. On top of that, I’m kind of crazy. I’ve always been. I think I’m bipolar or something, but I’ve always (yes, always) felt like I had a close connection to the spirit world. Raised a Roman Catholic, and very intelligent, I questioned the beliefs of the Catholic Church, then eventually threw them away. My exploration and journey is a living process, but what I have come to believe now, is that human life is an embodiment of good and evil, the light and good, whatever. We have plenty of ways to say it, I will call it good and evil. I’ve recently began questioning what makes the good so good? What makes bad so bad? Nothing is the answer. Society has simply trained us to believe that the right way is good, and perhaps that is better, because it will ensure a longer survival of our species.
Now I’ve heard voices. Sober and not, but the clearest ones were sober. I’ve heard a voice that’s obviously come from above, questioning me and making me realize how “bad” what I’ve been doing is, but in a way that makes it seem “okay” because this voice is forever-forgiving. I made this voice out to be that of God. I still have my qualms about whether God is personal to the individual consciousness or if God is a shared infinity. Now we’ve always learned to listen to that voice of God, but isn’t that a bit biased? Here is where I begin to step on my Catholic teachings. One day I was zoning out, with my eyes (not eyelids) going lower and lower. I let it happen; I looked at the ground and heard what I made out to be the devil.
“Hi Brian,” it said. “I know you’ve been thinking about me.”
Yeah, it was kind of creepy at first, but how else would the Devil begin a conversation? I still haven’t let myself hear him out completely, but what I have come to conclude is that I (and I believe everyone else, as well, although I haven’t experienced anything from someone else’s consciousness of course) have and equal good and bad side. [Every] human does. Other entities in this world may be good or bad. Entities not limited to certain spirits, energies, and the like, but also actions and events. There’s either a “positive” or “negative” result.
I’m becoming increasingly interested in the dark side. We’re surrounded by all these messages telling us to be good, be good. You read the Bible and learn how to love. You go to mass and learn how to forgive. I find the light to become a bit suspicious. There’s no letting us in on what goes on in the dark side. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT GOES ON. I WILL FIND OUT. I promised myself I would not harm anyone else and I would not harm myself in this journey. As long as I abide by those rules I believe I can venture deep into the realms of hate, regret, fear and learn to control them as I have learned to control love, forgiveness, and trust.
So about these “shadow beings” or shadow people as my druggie friends like to call them, I believe they’re always there. You know the whole etheric/astral plane thing? I think about it like this. Through our human senses, we know of 3 dimensions: x, y, and z, sometimes t if your considering time a dimension, and you can go ahead and do that if you want. I believe sometimes, we are able to, with powers that we are less aware of than our 5 senses, experience a 5th, and maybe 6th, 7th, etc. dimension. Let’s say we had x, y, z, and w. Forget about time right now (although perhaps it is equivalent to w). Our physical, “perceived” (through our humanly 5 obvious senses) image of the world is what I will call the physical plane. Perhaps the etheric/astral (I don’t know too much about that terminology. Some of those readings kill me because I disagree so much with them) planes have the same x, y, and z coordinates, but a different w. Making the plane in the same physical place, yet somewhere else. Maybe a different time if t=w.
Maybe, just maybe, we are always subconsciously accessing a 6th sense that lets us experience a positive value of w, bringing us into a heavenly, “good” earth experience. We know about drilling things into our subconscious by repetition, vocalizing, reading, experiencing. These are things that are influenced upon us by the media, church, and government…different forces with different programs for us. If we truly wish to open our minds, shouldn’t we be able to zoom out, subconsciously as well as consciously, and make that w value negative. Maybe we can have our perception in two of these “w” locations at once. We will be able to experience the good simultaneously with the bad, and see things for what they really are.
There’s so many ways I can go with this. See, if t=w…then is heaven the beginning, and hell the end? The story goes that God created the world, right? Maybe to ensure survival of this world we are to follow the good, so that the evil never takes over, for when it does, the Devil will destroy it. Maybe that conclusion is way off? I think there’s more we have to think about. The human race could make so much more progress if its thoughts weren’t plagued by such bullshit (pardon my French) on a daily basis. Just telling yourself you want to lucid dream effects your subconscious, so does everything the programmers (gov’t, religion, etc). Keep it in mind, and think about it. I think the shadow people are always there, but we can only see them in certain states of mind that let us experience them.
I learned a lot just typing this, it helps to get it out somewhere. There’s a lot of ways to look at this, just make sure you’re looking at ALL of it.