last night I went to bed feeling adamant that i want a lucid dream NOW! 
I drank a super-dooper coffee, laid down and relaxed myself, i noticed that the speckles of blue light i get in my eyes suddenly looked super sharp like they were on a HD screen, so i looked at these as closely as possible and kept relaxing.
after a while my vision went white and it looked as if i went towards it. my breathing went mental and i sort of panicked initially but got a sudden rush that felt BRILLIANT (which was like the rush of of the worlds fastest roller-coaster)I tried to hold on and embrace this feeling,but suddenly i was back to staring at the speckles, (still with heavy breathing). it was awesome !!, I had no way of relaxing my breathing. but hoped that my mind would switch to a dream. it did not, i repeated this process and got back the rush, it did not last as long this time, i failed the third time and fell asleep 
i have heard that it is nearly, (if not) impossible to do this without rem sleep so was i just panicking (without being scared).
