Hi. My name is Wolf waves I didn’t post in the intro section cause… well I’m not good with hellos. Okay… down to business:
I have just spent the past two days looking up all sorts of things about Lucid Dreaming, Out-Of-Body experiences, Astral Projection… some stuff on Binaural Beats, sleep paralysis. Basically just researching all of this stuff as a whole. So I have a basic understanding about WILD, MILD, WBTB ext. Of course knowledge and doing are two totally different things.
Now I really want to have a lucid dream. Like… if there was an experimental drug on the market that is meant to cause a lucid dream I would totally volunteer to try it. =P The thing is to actually get to a lucid dream seems extremely hard, stressful and in my case probably pretty much impossible. At least unless I do a complete re-working of my entire life which I’m really not about to do right now. So I suppose I could say I’m asking for advice/methods?
Let me explain, maybe you can help. These are the problems I find barring me from being able to do this.
— I’m the kind of person that needs to actually have a result relatively quickly and proof that it’ll happen. For example: I want to be a writer but I never will be because I don’t want to delve into all the work and time of writing a book - hoping that it’ll sell. Just as I don’t want to spend months of a dream journal (Which would have close to nothing in it might I add) and reality checks just on the off chance that maybe HOPEFULLY I will get a lucid dream out of it someday.
— I know everyone dreams but I don’t dream like I wake up and I KNOW I had a dream but can’t remember it. When I sleep, I go to sleep and the next thing I know it’s tomorrow. If I dreamed at ALL there is no recollection of it. Though that might be part of the next point.
– Let me add on with this is sometimes I DO vaguely remember that I dreamed but the only times that ever happens is when I take a nap in the middle of the day. But I live with extremely loud people in a room downstairs that hears everything and often I just don’t have a chance to nap so napping isn’t a reliable time to LD.
— My sleep cycle is kinda weird. No I don’t have a sleep disorder it’s just… how I am. I have a tendency to go to bed at like… 3am. I can NOT go to bed before 1am (firstly, I have a show that I refuse to miss and secondly my body will keep my lying awake all night if I try) This of course causes me to sleep well into the day unless I have work. But that sleep is interrupted usually.
–To top THAT off… I am terrible at falling asleep. I can’t do it easily. The method of back to back is waking up for a while after x amount of hours of sleep? Well usually that x amount is all the sleep I get in a night and secondly if I try to do that I wont be back to sleep for hours if at all.
-I also live in a very loud and obnoxious house (a little brother and two dogs who think it’s their goal in life to fill the world with barking) =/
So I think that pretty effectively causes MILD and WBTB to be a little less useful for me. So how about WILD?
Well… there’s problems with that as well.
-I am not good at falling asleep as I already said. Keeping my mind active basically makes it so I can’t fall asleep. I think I Might be able to accomplish it though. Because I have experienced SP. But the problem mainly comes in the SP…
Let me set off with that, if you believe as such, my house is haunted and I’m in the basement. That doesn’t help.
Secondly my mind like… hates me. Yea I think that’s a good description for it. My mind hates me. I can’t think to a time that my dreams didn’t have, at the very least, a feeling of fear or danger even if it wasn’t actually a nightmare. (Like I could go to the store in my dream but with a feeling like something is just off) My nightmares always have some demonic, gruesome, evil, depressing or just bad theme like that. The stereotypical “someone is chasing me across a field” dream is “there is a demon chasing me throughout a field of corpses in hell as something is trying to posses my soul and I’m suffering from some sort of poison”
So, as I searched through this site I have seen that feeling of shaking, being unable to breath, and other scary sensations and noises pared with hallucinations are quite common and actually expected alone with the basic being unable to move.
That won’t go over well with me. I know it won’t. That is just opening myself up for some scary stuff. I have felt SP before. I didn’t get to seeing or hearing things but I couldn’t move and it was scary as heck. I’ve also more than once felt a falling sensation on the edge of sleep and even if I try to not act on it I still jolt awake. Though neither have happened in ages.
So… yea. What can I possibly do? Is there any way I’ll be able to get to a lucid dream?
((Oh… a random cool piece of information I wanna add on is once I had a dream that I was falling asleep due to some sort of gas and if I allowed myself to fall asleep someone I cared for was going to be killed. So obviously I was trying to stay awake in the dream, forcing my eyes to stay open. I somehow actually dragged myself fully awake… I remember forcing my eyes opening and seeing a mix of the real world inside of the dream world and finally at one point I fully woke up, exhausted. At no point did I realize it was a dream so that wasn’t a lucid dream. It was weird though.))
Sorry this is so ramble-y but I figure if anyone can help they need to know as much as possible.
Tag-on info: I can’t meditate. I’m to stressed and anxious so saying about practicing meditation is the same as suggesting a dream journal. =P