Hey, I’m 15 and I’ve been trying for quite a while to have my first LD and have come tantalizingly close on three occasions. I keep a dream journal, and do occasional RC’s. I had my first almost LD before I even started my DJ the same night I dieced I was going to learn lucid dreaming:
I was watching a series of buses roll down a street from end to end while the drivers heads fell off. I somehow just realized it was a dream (DILD I guess) and looked at my hand. My fingers where warped in a unusual way and I woke up.
The second near LD I had after starting my DJ.
Again, I somehow realized it was a dream and looked at my hand which was warped in the same way as the last dream. I expected the landscape in the dream to become extremely vivid but everything still felt fuzzy and unclear which was frustrating. The only difference was that I felt a heatined awareness of where my body was in space, stronger even then in waking life. I gradually lost my luicidity after this and it became an ordinary dream.
I think possibly the reason everything dident become more vivid was because I didn’t really think about what my hand RC meant. I get the sense to acheive true lucidity you have to have a series of linear thoughts something like this in the dream: My fingers are warped, therefore this is a dream, which means this landscape is being generated by my mind and my waking life body is in bed.
My closest encounter yet, I had last night. To initiate it, I did some WrILD before I went to bed, got an alarm to wake me up at 4:00 ( WBTB), stayed up for 10 minutes for so, then went back to bed using MILD. Strangely I can remember almost nothing about the dream.
I realized I was dreaming, looked at my hand which was warped and tried using the chain of thought I had contemplated after my second near LD. This had a disastrous effect and the dream (including my dream body) rapidly disintegrated into nothing but a whole lot of patterns, like the CEV’s you get when you rub your eyes. I can’t remember what happened after that, but I think I lost my lucidity.
People say it’s an incredible experience when you have your first LD. I feel I’m getting very close to this point which is exciting .
How can I become truly lucid in my dreams to the point where everything becomes more vivid and I can fly and experiment without the dream disintegrating?
Any help would be greatly appreciated . Sorry about the length of this post.