Hello all
I am wondering if any of you have noticed the marked difference between the clarity of say…WILD vs ‘waking up’ within an existing dream. I mean to say that I have experienced both (not enough though) and think that when I deliberately, directly enter the lucid state the quality of awareness is totally different. I would say so much so, that a couple of my WBTB experiences have made me really question reality itself.
I have used a leafy substance (maybe shouldnt mention it) starting with the letter ‘k’ to aid in my WBTB experiences. The times when WBTB have worked for me, it goes like this. I see all the colors in front of my closed eyes, I try to focus them into me travelling down a road, the road may at first be in my ‘minds eye’ but gradually the hypnogogic imagery starts to form into the road, a road that is I am travelling on very fast. I guess sometime around then I experience the sleep paralysis. Interestingly images start to also form. At some point, and I cannot explain when, it becomes an option to actually ‘step in’ to the image. When I do this, I am then fully conscious in a completely new universe. Its the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. The level of lucidity is basically 100% I am as aware of what is happening as I am right now.
However, I have also had ‘reality check’ experiences. I practiced these checks for a while (daytime) and, eventually they did make their way into my dreams. The lucidity didnt seem as much and it was pretty fleeting. I makes me wonder…
I know some people say there is a difference between the two. Some may say that WBTB is a type of ‘astral travelling’. I am a skeptical person…Hang on, I may mean W.I.L.D technique. Yes, I mean WBTB with W.I.L.D is what I use when I experience the most lucidity. Now, the lucidity that I have experienced after using the W.I.L.D technique has made me really question what is happening to me. I will tell you of the time that made this questioning arise…
I had somehow teleported myself directly into the lucid state using WBTB & W.I.L.D at about 4:00 am in the morning. I found myself in a garden with an old woman who was tending to her plants. She looked up at me and it was as if she somehow knew…something, I dont know what. I did not say anything to her. I was so awestruck by the fact that I was now in this place, this place that seemingly was a figmant of my imagination. I went for a walk and the was an old ruined church, like something from the medievil times. I remember breathing the cold air and watching the steam from my mouth dissapate into the air. I remember thinking that I felt the MOST AWAKE that I have ever felt in my life!! The clarity was unlike anything I have ever known.
Anyway, it made me question reality. It made me kind of crazy. I still think about it and still wonder. In my mind I actually went to another place. I know its impossible but I cant escape ‘knowing’ it…even though its hard to accept.
Please share your thoughts on this matter with me.