I woke up from a dream where I became lucid about 3 minutes ago. I’m happy that I had an LD because I’ve had unusually bad dream recall for the past 5 days or so.
So I had an LD but there was a problem. The same problem I had in my last short LD and I think it might be one of a kind:
I was in a dream which lasted really long and after a lot of stuff happened, we had to drive somewhere and we got in cars with friends and stuff. So I’m in our van with some kid I don’t know, my brother’s friend and my cousin. No one was in the driver seat and we just started going. We somehow just got into some city at night and we were heading towards a light turning yellow, still without anyone in this driver seat. I was kind of scared we might get in a crash, but I told myself it was okay because it was a dream. Then I thought “Wait, it’s okay because IT’S A DREAM!!!” My cousin said as we were heading towards the changing light “I hope we make it!” with a funny face and in a joking way that he usually does, and I replied with a funny expression and a silly tone of voice “Yeah!” I think part of what made me comfortable in the car was the fact that it had my cousin who I know well and my brother’s friend who is cool.
So now we’re past the light and just driving somewhere and everything gets clearer. I look out the windshield and think “I can do anything I want to” but I was scared to try and jump out of the moving car so I could try things. But almost as soon as I became lucid (this whole driving thing lasted about 10 seconds) I had this really bad feeling, again. The last time I became lucid in a dream this same thing happened. I can’t totally describe it but it was just a bad feeling. It’s like I was excited and it hurt, a bad kind of excited, I felt sick in my stomach and made a scared moan and part tried to wake up and part unwillingly.
I was concious waking up and I was trying to see if I could move to get out of my body, but I felt that I would move my real self if I tried. I opened my eyes and decided I should pst this on here to get some help. What is wrong with me? Why does this happen in LDs? Can anyone explain it?
On a side note, I have a question and a theory. My question is will I become lucid more often now? I’ve been lucid three times in dream so far (first time I was dead in the dream ) so I’m hoping this might trigger lucidity more easily. My theory is that for me it’s much easier to become lucid in a scary situation. I’m franticly trying to find someway out of whatever it is that’s scary in the dream. I’ve known I was dreaming before when I was in a scary situation, but I think I just didn’t know about lcuid dreaming then or at least wasn’t interested enough. And also I didn’t do any method or technique to induce an LD. Only thing I did out of the ordinary is listen to music (punk rock ) while I’m trying to fall asleep, though I turned it off before I did.
So I now think whenever I have a scary dream I’ll be lucid! Only problem is I don’t have scary dreams often and I can’t do anything unless I can get over that problem with LDs. Can someone please help with my problem with LDs? It’s really weird and frustrating