OMG I just had my first LUCID NIGHTMARE!!!!

Tuesday, June 11, 2001
(My first lucid nightmare)

Okay, out of the 22 or so lucid dreams i’ve had, both long and short, bizzare and normal, this was my FIRST LUCID NIGHTMARE! At least thats what it would be called if I had to give it a name…Lucid NIGHTMARE fits just right!

There were parts of the normal dream before the part where I was lucid and aware…but I don’t recall them.

*although the first part of the lucid nightmare are unvivid, even as I write this 20 minutes after it happened, I STILL have adrenaline rushing through me I was so SCARED, the whole experiance and sensation is still fresh in my mind, and probably will be all day.

The most vivid beginning of this dream I can come up with was I was laying in the bed I was asleep at in real life…

Something was SERIOUSLY wrong with me, and I knew that the ‘devil/a ghost’ was reaching through the wall and grabbing me, and yelling at me and stuff, and I even CLEARLY REMEMBER the ghost grabbing my crotch area just once. As this was happening I’m thinking the ONLY thing I could have to fight this off with was my ‘white light’…the goodness I have in me…for all it was worth, even though I figured nothing, I was TRYING, because at this point I was FREAKING OUT, and completly horrified, all VERY REAL, VERY LUCID.

*Lucid as in the fact it in hinde sight was AMAZINGLY real, as real as any of my lucid dreams…but I didn’t realize I was in a dream.

I started screaming out to my friend in the living room, and yelling that something was seriously wrong with me. At this point I think I was ‘realeased’…but my vision, my being, everything was still VERY WRONG about this situation. I crawled/stumbled/bounced off the walls the best I could to make it out in the living room, all the while screaming and yelling out LOREN LOREN HELP.

I got out to the living room where I saw Loren taking off the security bars to a window. I had though my yelling made him think there was a burglar. I didn’t want him to do that really, but I was more worried about what was going on with ME.

I plopped on the couch, and lookd over, and was wondering why the hell Loren was not responding to my pleas for help! I looked and saw him fussing with the TV/VCR connection, and told him a ghost was trying to get me. *I firmly believed SOMETHING supernatural was happening!

One thing I must mention is, the window he was taking the bars off, and the TV he was fussing with was totally in the wrong locations…A CLEAR DREAM SIGN, but I missed it…besides, my vision and senses were HIGHLY DISTORTED!

All of a sudden…BLAM, I’m back in the room where this originated, again in the bed…hearing noises, again not being able to see well, and AGAIN totally freaking the fuck out.

At this point, I had come to my senses…I questioned without thought…“is this a dream?”…the room was dark, and I could not see as my vision was highly impared…I lifted up my arm, and I saw NO ARM where I should of definitly seen my arm no problem. It all started coming to me, and I kinda tried to ‘will’ myself out of this situation, to be exact, I ‘willed’ there to be an arm.

As I willed there to be an arm I started to see it form , and my vision become more stable…Just as this happened, I woke UP FOR REAL.

Waking up, from a sensation of total discombobulation , to complete and full eye sight, hearing, realization that I was back in the real world was INTENSE, and was an EXPERIANCE I’m glad to have gone through.

Still however, I was not totally conviced what I just experianced was a dream…I laid in bed for a second, basically ENJOYING the stability of everything around me, and the fact I could see right. I got up and RUSHED out into the living room where I was SO HAPPY to see Loren in the living room on the computer.

I asked him in a hurry, as he looked at me like I was crazy…“was I just yelling and screaming for help ?” He kinda knows of my lucid dreaming…and turned down the TV and was talking to me, saying he had heard nothing…and thats when I felt very safe, and realized that everything in hinde sight was IN FACT a dream…but even then, my heart was RACING, and my adrenaline was PUMPING to its fullest.

I sat down on the couch and began to reflect on everything, and kinda explain to him what had happened.

Was one of the most INTENSE lucid moments I have ever had…and again, I say lucid meaning that this was MORE THAN A DREAM…this was me being very aware of all my senses, and their distortion…and at the end I DID realize it was a dream, but the dream ended before I could transform it into anything other than the nightmare.

WOOHOO, im thrilled, and TOTALLY RE MOTIVATED!
I’m glad this happened too…this will totally prepare me for more ‘lucid nightmares’ , and next time I’ll be able to realize im dreaming much earlier hopefully, so I can turn it from a nightmare to an ADVENTURE!

Had to share…GL everyone, sweet dreams.

LucidLasVegas

Wow! Sounds pretty scary!

I’m not gonna lie…it WAS scary! One of the most scariest things that ever happened to me heh.

This phenomenon(sp?) does not suprise me though. I’d like to write a lucid dream I had recently which was a lot like this one, but WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY less scary:

I’m having a dream, a fairly realistic dream, more so than my average dream. I believe it is possible to have non lucid dreams in which your senses are more ‘aware’ than normal, and thus it was kinda like it was really happening, instead of a dream, but still VERY MUCH just a dream at this point. Just wanted to clarify this
Hope that didn’t confuse ya hehe. Anyways…

I’m having this dream that I’m at the mall or a Casino (I live in Las Vegas heh). I know I’m about to have a job interview, in a public place with a professional women. But something is wrong…my vision is VERY impared. I look up and it’s like everything is shaking back and forth…so quickly I find it VERY difficult to see, and am rather worried.

The women comes up and I know I have to take a seat at the table, which I don’t see very well , because of my impared vision. I attempt to pull a seat out, and instead of the seat I grab the glass table top, which is not anchored down to the base of the table. I almost knock over the table, and another interviewer, a gentlmen grabs the table top before it tips and tells me to “take it easy buddy” rather frustrated it sounded like.

At this point I think is where I became *lucid, but didn’t realize it was a dream…everything seemed WAY TO REAL. I told the lady I had to go, and simply left, not giving a damn about the job interview, or cicumstances, or anything, because I knew I was ‘sick’ or SOMETHING was happening…

I don’t remember making way to the exit of this ‘casino/mall’ but I do remember being outside of the building, all the while keeping my head down, trying to focus on the ground because my vision again, was SO IMPARED.

I somehow know my brother Ethan is there, and I tell him something is wrong with me…but scared to admit something was SERIOUSLY wrong with me because I didn’t want to…go to the hospital or whatever.

I see 3 large, but shallow steps in front of me, and I think to myself I may crash and fall if I go down them. And sure enough, BLAM, I fall to the ground and the pavement.

I struggle to get up, and at this point am very worried …I yell out to my brother Ethan, “Ethan, something is SERIOUSLY wrong with me I think I need help.” I had sucked up my pride and asked for help, because I seriously needed it.

I don’t hear him or see him, so the only thing I can think of at this point is this, “There is ONLY ONCE CHANCE…” I look up and see a young hip dude my age standing in front of me wearing some kind of uniform, obviously he is on the job. I ask him desperately…“Am I dreaming?”

He replies quickly and confidently, “Yes”…suddently without realizing it, my eye site is back to normal…I ask him again, kinda shocked, “am I dreaming?”

He replies a bit frustrated, seeing as how he was trying to do his job of some kind, “Yes man, your dreaming”

I look around, FULLY LUCID! WOOHOOO.

HOW I became lucid is what I wanted to write about, but Ill finish the LD seeing as how it was short

I look up and see a dark sky…This time, I wanted to FOCUS on the sky and see this fabulous LD sky that has not really impressed me too much in prior LD’s…I don’t see anything too fabolous other than 6 squily lines…formed in the same way a 6 is on a dice…floating through the air.

much like looking at a big stadium light at a baseball game, then closing your eyes…except instead of a blob of color, it was 6 squiggly circles

It was intersted, but lost my attention quickly. Then I remember to look around and suck up my dream scenery. I think I was in a junk yard…

I decide to fly…I try to fly off the ground but slowly start to descent after ascending 20 or so feet…then, before I could ‘will’ myself back into the air in proper flight, LUCID AUTO PILOT kicks in and I begin to fly in REVERSE, and with no control. Was a BLAST though, I had a great sensation of flying…and I remember looking down at 3 kids just below me as I chased them in the air and they ran from me!..I was yellng down to em, “HEY KIDS” or something like that.

That was pretty much the end of my LD…but I just wanted to post on HOW i became lucid…the impared vision and the thought of KNOWING something was seriously wrong…strong and vidid, and even a bit scary.

This LD had NOTHING on my lucid nightmare though heh.

LucidLasVegas

WOW!!!
The first dream made my eyes pop out (not literally ), and the second one made me WANT to have lucid dreams much more. One in a non-lucid dream I looked at the night sky, and all I saw was two star constellations, big dipper and one another. There were strong and clear. It was nice to see stars in my dream tought, because I live far north, and these days we have midnight sun ( = NO night or stars ) because I LOVE watching stars. In other dream which was lucid, I looked at the sky and saw TWO suns!!! They were close to each others, and they were much smaller and weaker that the good ol’ sun we do have in waking life. The sky was otherwise bright and blue with no clouds. But it, together with other events in the dream scared me so much that I woke up few seconds after becoming lucid…

God dreams can be soooooo scary. Thank God you have somebody like Loren there. Anyway, about your 1st dream: I’d say it wasn’t lucid; you were about to become lucid when you did the ‘arm test’ (great idea!). Then you used your emerging awareness to get the hell out of the dream, instead of calming yourself IN the dream and realising there was no danger. It would have been interesting to have become lucid. I’ve never had a lucid nightmare, I do the same as you: will myself to waking. But Lucid Nightmares are really the holy grail of Lucid dreaming, since that is where you can slay your demons and exorsice your ghosts, or in other words deal with fears and traumas. People who have done that wake up estatically happy, if you believe the stories. So if this EVER happens again, do the same thing: reality test! But after that, stay in the dream and realize that nothing there can harm you, however afraid you are, and take it from there: confront what scares you, with hostility or love, you decide. If you ever succeed I’d love to read it. If I succeed, I’ll let you know. Keep dreaming!

Just read the second dream: wow! I wish my Dreamcharacters were as cooperative as that one. Anyway, it also illustrates what I wrote before: When you gained real lucidity, you gained power and it became more pleasant. This is the difference between realistic dreams an lucid dreams.

*Pre-lucid to lucid nightmare may of been a better title

I can see how you can say it wasn’t lucid…it wasn’t totally lucid. But I have to put it in the ‘lucid’ category simply because of my senses being fully aware and active, with concious ability to ‘scream to loren’.

And at the end of the dream I DID test reality, and I was lucid because I was ‘willing’ the event to stop, and ‘willing’ my arm to appear. Just as I was ABOUT to turn the dream around, I woke up…I didn’t wake myself up. I don’t believe in waking myself up in a dream.

And I have FACED a fear before in my dream, it’s GREAT! My FIRST lucid dream was induced exactly from that…

I had read that it was important to face your dream fears, and find out WHY they are chasing you, as you can learn much more from that than either waking up, or using your lucidity to transform the negative dream image.

Jason or freddy was chasing me through my house, I thought to myself, “I should turn and face my fears, find out why he is chasing me.”

As I turned around everything around me went foggy white, like as if I were in a cloud…thats when I was FULLY lucid for the first time. I looked around thinking, “OMG IM DREAMING YES YES YES YES”. Turned around and continued my LD that lasted approx 5 minutes. WAS GREAT!

The feeling of facing your fear IS great!

The intense fear I felt in the nightmare I explained was so intense…I think after I tested my reality and realized it was a dream, my heart and adrenaline was so HIGH, that I had no choice to wake up I TRIED not to wake up though for that last second I was totally aware that what I was experiancing was a dream.

Sucked…next time I’ll be SO much better prepared! IT WAS GREAT! As I know you cannot be hurt in a dream, that was SAAAWEEEATTT! Being able to be SO AFRAID, and then become aware it is a dream, awake, with carried over sensations. Was SO GREAT. Im so hpyed hehehe.

But you right, lucid does mean to be aware…so technically I was only lucid for about 3 seconds before my body awoke itself. But had to call it something differant…because the dream was 100 times more real than my ‘normal non lucid’ dreams.

Prelucid to lucid nightmare may of been a better title.

Oh btw, the BEST lucid sky i’ve seen so far was actually fairly impressive now that I think about it.

I was lucid outside, at night, and was looking up at the sky. In las vegas we don’t see many stars because our city is SO BRIGHT, but in my lucid dream I saw millions of stars, and a DENSE RING of stars you could see moving around faster than the farther starts. Dunno if I explained that well…was pretty cool though.

Someone pass the mushrooms please…i want to see it too!!!
I envy you like allways LLV:)keep it goin:)

The best dream sky ive seen was in a normal dream. I was standing next to a automatic cash dispenser with my girlfriend. It was midday. Then my gf said to me “My mom always said that you should look at the sky”. So i looked at the sky and there was somekind of symbol there. Then it faded away and the clouds in the sky started taking shape of a swan. Once the swan was complete it filled the whole sky. It was so massive and so beautiful. One of my best dream memories.

Mmmm shrooms heh. I’ve had about 3 times as many shrooms as I have lucid dreams hehehe, and I can say the lucid sky’s are much better

Oh btw, thanks Jack heh, kind words indeed

Lucidity has been slow going for me lately…'bout to go nuts though I think, because my dream recall has been awesome lately, and I think I’m about ready to take it to the next level Hopefully!!!

I’m about to go on vacation down in Laguna Beach for two weeks come Friday…got a time share RIGHT ON THE BEACH…no computers, no phones, no drugs, and a lot of sleeping in. I’m hoping to have some then!!!