Every night I have the same kind of dreams…
I’m in bed… I’m sleeping… or I’m watching tv… or posting… I go to “sleep” and then “wake up” back into the same bed, or a different bed… whatever…
But I’m always largely inactive and in a bed… for long long periods of time…
people can be there interacting with me… in a good way or in a bad way… it doesn’t matter.
It’s always the same though, more or less… I have some normalish dreams upon falling asleep… then if I sleep in or went to bed early enough… I have sleeping dreams until shortly before it’s time to get up (usually my mind wants me up at 5-6, though the earliest i ever get up for school is at 6:30) and then I can do some WILDs and whatnot…
These dreams really bother me, because for one, they can completely distort my view of “reality” in a very bad way… this morning I woke up… feeling very very groggy, hungry, disoriented… maybe even “drunken” in an unfamiliar bed… I didn’t know what I was doing there… “oh. i’m sleeping at my grandmas house…” but WHY am I sleeping at my grandmas house? Where did my memories of the previous night go? Well oh wait, those things I dreamed about doing at her house must have been real…
and so I get up… thinking hey… okay… I guess I was here all night… or hey… I guess it’s summer and I’m on vacation in California…
and I never question these thoughts… they make a disorienting sense to me… then if I have another FA after that… it just gets progressively worse…
so anyway like last night I woke up and a muppet babies commercial was on… and I was excited that the muppet babies were back on tv and went to find something to eat… then I woke up into SP… and I had no idea what bed I was in… I still thought I was at my grandmas house until I managed to look abroad and notice that I was in my room…
then I had a few more FAs after that before I could finally get up.
I dont’ know why this happens to me… i’ve read that it might mean you are more in tune with your body than most people, so you are largely aware of it’s dormant sleeping position throughout the night…
But if so why don’t I ever with rare exceptions get lucid during these dreams?
I often do reality checks when in my bed, but I only do them if I’m uncertain as to whether I’m awake, which means i probably am.
I don’t know… then at one point last night I literally woke up (reality checked) told myself “okay this is enough, I’m doing RCs everytime I’m in my bed” and then I laid back down… and all of a sudden I’m dreaming again, but I didn’t feel a falling asleep sensation, it just dawned on me that I needed to do a RC and almost couldn’t believe that I was dreaming.
so… do you all have these kinds of pointless sleeping dreams? They say dreaming of slepeing means that you are unware of something (the fact that i’m dreaming i guess?) but… I don’t know… they are so annoying and can be very mentally draining…
why can’t I dream that I’m actually DOING SOMETHING? Sure I do every night, but usually at least 50% of my time spent in bed is spent dreaminf of sleeping or being in bed.
and that frustrates me… it’s so much wasted lucidity time… if my mind doesn’t care what i’m dreaming about to the point where it has me lie stil in bed… then well… i don’t think it’d mind if i took control would it?
or would it keep forcing me into FAs, wanting me to think I’m asleep?
meh… - > it’s a pretty annoying reccurring dream theme.