the only nightmares i tend to have are recurring right now…
and i ALWAYS force myself awake…
some of them are about people burning… like… for no reason there will be a fire somewhere, and someone burning and screaming… and i run and try and get away from them as much as possible and try not to hear them, and usually force myself awake…
one was this family in a car which was randomly in a neighbors back yard for no reason and randomly blew up (influenced by Goldmember probably) and I was lucid so I wasn’t too upset and poured pool water onto them, and they started sizzling and steaming up and stuff but it wouldn’t put them out…
I freaked out and woke myself up… then later I decided to go reconfront it and with all my will power I managed to extinguish them.
I don’t know if there is a connection but once whilst lucid I was goofing around with fireballs and accidentally burned a little girl, so I tried to heal her but it wasn’t working right… so I apologized and told her I’d come back to heal her… but I never have…
It’s not that I don’t want to anymore, I figure I should give it a try since I said it would, it’s just that I never remember while lucid.
Then a lot of times I have dreams about horror movies, inside video stores… they usually have very disturbing covers… like… really screwed up stuff… like rape/torture and it’s pretty violent… it used to be i’d be looking for porn and i’d stumble accross them…
So more screwed up sex symbolism for me… yay…
But they weren’t really nightmares per se…
This one time recently (semi-lucid) I met this girl at a video store and it was really abstract and freaky looking, and I thought it was pretty cool… she said something about a scary section and it was dark red (like lit up) and I wanted to explore it but just looking at it from afar made me feel really uneasy.
My worst nightmare ever was probably my first FA
I had a dream about being at a babysitters and that she was putting poison in our food and I found out… so then she chased after me… and I woke up and went out in the hallway… and then all of a sudden she was standing right there by me…
It scared me so badly … I mean I was just a little kid and I thought for sure I was awake… man… it was pretty bad.
Then my first episode of SP with a presence involved around 12… it was a grim reaper looking guy with a sword and I thought for sure I was about to die… I prayed (being reilgious at the time) … which was more like screaming inside my head, for help… and I eventually woke up…