In my dreams sometimes I’ll sometimes experience and control anger were all be shouting at people, yelling, throwing chairs and other objects, and completely unable to control myself.
The thing is, when I’m awake, I have no problem controlling my anger. Sometimes I remain so calm, and have such self control, one of my friends said she’s never seen anything like it.
And the thing is I don’t try to not be angry either, don’t feel like things bother me, or I have to “fight” to stay calm, and I don’t run of the passive either; I just naturally am able to manage my emotions very well.
This is to the point that I don’t even consciously understand what it’s like for a person not to be able to control their emotions or actions, and the only experience I have of uncontrollable rage where my body just does things on its own is in these dreams.
My question is, why do I lose control of my emotions in my dreams, but not in real life? I suspect it has something to do with my analytical mind overriding, and taking control in these situations, and somehow served pressing my more primal brain, but I’m not entirely sure.
I’m not passive. I can be aggressive, and if someone gets in my face a I will fight, or I will say what’s on my mind, so I’m not just laying down either, but I try to deal with situations are dialogue and diplomacy, and use aggression and fighting as a last resort, but I still ultimately don’t hold back in my behavior toward others.
Any thoughts, insights, or input would be appreciated!