Ever read your older posts?

Shaper · December 14, 2005, 4:15am

Hey all,

Have you ever gone back and read your old posts, like, your really old posts?
I just did, I read some of the oldests post I’ve ever made on this website. It’s interesting how different I was back then, and how differently I communicated on this site (at times I was kind of a jerk )

How about you guys, have you ever gone back and read your old posts?

moogle · December 14, 2005, 4:32am

I do it every now and again… I don’t think I have changed that much.
Just for fun my first few posts…
the BIG “Hi, I’m new here!” topic III

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Newbie Advice - Helpful Hints For The Aspiring Lucid Dreamer

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So do you think I have changed? Except for being able to handle BBcode now

Shaper · December 14, 2005, 4:39am

You definitly have a good handle on BBcode, what with all the quoting and large fonts and everything you just used

Bruno · December 14, 2005, 4:41am

Her self esteem improved a lot too. Look at her first post.

Josh, quote your first posts here too!

Shaper · December 14, 2005, 4:48am

Very well, I’ll go find some…

This one is me correcting Jeff after he accidentally called me John…no smilies or emoticions…I feel like such a jerk, writing so stern like that

And here is my very first post on the philosopher’s cloud, talking about the meaning of life

Anyone think I’ve changed or do I seem the same as always?

Bruno · December 14, 2005, 5:07am

You became more scanable.

Also, I think you’re a bit more friendly now, but that may be just the lack of smileys in your first posts

You still start your posts positioning yourself in relation to the other posters—I agree, I disagree.

Funny to see how you moderators began your journeys through this forum. I mean—look at this! By the time of these posts you both were just… Yet two other n00bs.

Do you think I should quote my first posts? I may be only 11 days old, but the first posts won’t change much.

Nah, I batter wait till I changed to ask people if they think I changed.

Shaper · December 14, 2005, 5:19am

I agree (I’m positioning myself in relation to another poster again…)
You could wait a while and then go back and look, it’s more interesting that way

alex · December 14, 2005, 7:57am

Several times when people have replied to very old topics and i see one of my old posts i don’t even recognise that it was me writing it let alone remember writing it. I’ve even thought “was there another alex on this board?”
I don’t think i’ve changed that much since i first joined but maybe i have and just haven’t noticed it

Petter · December 14, 2005, 3:20pm

I have seen some of my old posts now .

Especially my first .
I started wilding accidently and it scared me in here !

I also noticed that I aint that formal when osting as I was and post more .
I aint “afraid” of the forum anymore
And I have went more to the lounge the gathering and playground

I have over 600 PG posts

Shaper · December 14, 2005, 3:23pm

Wow, if playground posts counted, you’d be well over 1000 posts already

Petter · December 14, 2005, 3:28pm

Yup I would

But I havent spammed playgound .
Noooooooooooooooooooot at all

Lanina · December 14, 2005, 4:04pm

I haven’t been here for such a long time, but I think that I’ve changed. I have found certain smilies I like to use, and I also know people more. I’m not as formal and I post less
“That sounds intresting”.

Redifin · December 14, 2005, 9:25pm

It’s weird, but I laugh at myself.

Siiw · December 14, 2005, 11:17pm

My first post since i got my internet back was this:

That is still my favourite RC

The second post was this:

and Q was the first to reply to something I posted. I haven’t dreamt about her for quite a long time now.

and the first LD was this:

I got a LD this night.

My parents and I am sitting in my parents’ car outside the house I grew up in. There are so many people outside the car it’s difficult to move it. I point out a foreign football player to my mother, who supports the same team. I want to talk to him, so I step out of the car. All the people went into the house, and I spot a new motorbike outside the house. I decide to go for a ride. “This isn’t real and I can’t be caught”, I think. The hill some 200 m from the house is unnatyrally steep, and I almost fall off the motorbike! “This hill is badly made. It’s not as steep in the real world”, I think. Then I realise I’m dreaming.

I’m standing on top of the hill, looking at my childhood home. My brother is walking up the hill towards me. I tell him, “this is a dream”. He replies, “really?” I perform what was meant to be a spectacular flying kick, and land on my back, on the ground. It’s like the gravity has been changed. Then we engage in the Wing Chun exercise “chi sao”. I’m able to feel and trap all his moves. (Normally I’m reluctant to spar with him. He has been practicing far more than me) When we are finished I turn and look at the house again, amazed that this detailed view is actually stored in my brain. The sky is grey, with dark grey clouds and light grey cracks. I cover my eyes with my hands and look again, but that only added some pink in the cracks. Somewhere on the way home I lose control of the dream.

I remember moogle’s welcome post to me well! I was surprised when she had been reading my dreams…it added a lot to the friendly impression of this place.

Fiver · December 14, 2005, 11:58pm

I’m pretty sure that’s my first post.
I don’t like it. Only a few months ago, but it still seems far away.

poseidon · January 15, 2006, 7:24pm

After a request…or should I say I was black mailed ?.. I m here to post my old me .
I had no intros or so …

So check how passionate was poseidon :

Fri Aug 01, 2003

poseidon:

Well thats 1000$ question!
Why are the adults so blind?

I m afraid the answer is quite simple:
Its not about situations that made the so tired of theyr life
its all about theyr minds
Adults cant be less that logic.Logic makes them blind.Thats how they will always be.Tell me a name of a 90 years old human that believes in aliens …(Is there except Agencies employes ?)
Im sorry i cant handle english language well but thats what happens when you live in other country.
Today i ll try LD! I was used 2 when i was smaller.Now i m 16 i ll find my way home wish me luck.

Once a friend said Open Minds Are Better Minds…

Dream Well !!
      Trully yours John.ZZZZZZzzzZZ :eek:

My english still suck ^^,that never changed…

Aug 13, 2003 12:31

Ok and now ladies and gents … I present you …I m so Good DR bad FR(need help)exited…my first topic YAY!!!YAY!!!..so proud~!

Good DR bad FR(need help)

The greatest part is old dreams, just coOOoLzzss.

Greetings

At this point I want to apologise adults for being so bad with them … I know …I m so sorry …

MWAhahahahahaAHAHAHAHA

Sock_Puppet · January 15, 2006, 8:07pm

Before, I wasn’t sure about everything. “What if this happens? I’m not sure of this happened.” I also posted less. But look at me now.

Wolf · January 20, 2006, 2:17am

To stop the post from stretching out, I’ve made the quote a bit smaller. This was my second post. (first was short and uninteresting, this shows the old me more)

Wolf from the past:

[size=100]Wow, I got welcomed by the Mayor of WolfGame and PasQuale herself! OK, I’ll be sure to try out your suggestions. Thanks a lot!

As for LDing, I did it a couple of times before. I had no idea about all of this stuff though. This is kinda weird, but almost every week I get nightmares about something trying to scare, hurt, chase, or kill me. It used to be every couple of days when I was little. I knew I was dreaming when I was in them, but it still scared me.

Since that freaked me out, I came up with my own plan of action. Every time it came to a point where something was after me, I tried to curl up in a little ball and go to sleep. (in the dream) If sleeping in the real world gets you to dreamland, couldn’t the same be true visa versa? It seemed to work for me.

I had a lot of bad dreams when I was little where I was semi-lucid. I could tell it was a dream, but I couldn’t do anything about it. This one time I was in an amusement park with these people who were supposed to be my friends. (even though I had never seen them in real life before) They kept forcing me to go on all these scary rides. Whenever I tried to get away, they kept grabbing me. I was a little kid when I had this, so my “friends” were a lot bigger than me. I kept telling them that this was a dream, and they shouldn’t be able to boss me around, but they didn’t listen. I then had to go on this HUGE roller coaster. At the very top of the ride I screamed at the top of my lungs, “WAAAKE UUUUP!” For an instant I think my eyelids fluttered open a tiny bit, but then closed again. The dream sorta drifted off into blackness after that.

Weird, huh? That’s not even the weirdest part. One of the gang stuck clearly in my mind: He was a tall round kid with baggy clothes. For about half the year I’ve been hanging out with a kid from school that looks exactly like that. I never thought about it until posting it here. The dream was, after all, a couple of years ago.

I may be posting this stuff on the other boards too, just so you know. I just wanted to reply to you guys first. If you’d like you can mail me at Wolfinator@verizon.net. Thanks again! [/size]

Ugh, I sounded so odd… (still do, but I trust everyone now and can be myself more ) Look at the progress I’ve made! pats self on back Funny to see how much you change, isn’t it? Another thing I noticed is how paranoid I was back when I started my first DJ. If I ever said something offensive, I would write long explanations saying that I was sorry and didn’t really mean that.

Fun stuff, eh?

Shaper · January 20, 2006, 3:08am

You sound much more ‘comfortable’ now

Bruno · January 31, 2007, 2:29am

Over a year ago:

Hey, dreamers!

My name is Bruno Ansarah, and I live in Brazil. In one week, I’ll be 17 years old.

It’s summer down here in the Southern Hemisphere, and the landscape looks just beautiful through my bedroom’s window (a large door-like window). It’s been raining a LOT lately here in São Paulo, and today the whole city looked amazing at the sunset, covered by clouds all around.

Seeing this magnificent view through my window, I got to remember some of my dream landscapes, and of course, the dreams themselves. And then, feeling a bit nostalgic, I decided to join this forum, as LD4All had helped me a lot when I was fifteen and started having nightmares on a daily basis, some of which developed into insomnia. I had experienced lucidity in one or two of these nighmares, and started looking for ways to trigger lucidity again, which I came to found in this site.

It didn’t just work things out, not rightaway, but I started making RCs everywhere and got to become lucid more and more often, until one day I stoped having nightmares. A couple of weeks later though, I stopped remembering my dreams.

The rest of my fifteenth and my sixteenth years were quite busy, and I couldn’t focus on remembering/recording my dreams and experiencing lucidity.

Now, though, my life is way calmer, and I found time to paint, cook, write, blog, sport and—why not?—give lucid dreams a try. So here am I, wish me luck!

I wasn’t telling all the truth. I had a Death dream the day I joined LD4all again, that’s what made me look for the site after over two years…

Hey, guys!

I’m still not lucid in my dreams (and to be honest with you, I started remembering them on an almost daily basis a month or so ago) but I think this was worth sharing.

I’m a synaesthete, and in my dreams, I reach even higher levels of synaesthesia.

But first I have to explain how it feels like in waking life. Synaesthesia is not about feeling more than other people. When I see my best friend, Nana, I don’t see her green, or visualize green while seeing her, I just know she’s somehow green. When it comes to looking at myself in the mirror, that colour thing gets even funnier as I know myself in a grayscale tone of yellow. I have my skin colour, I see it as you see it, but I look at me and I know myself not only yellow, but greyscale yellow. Go figure.

Also, reading a book’s chapter some days ago, I knew it smell just like whisky, even though I didn’t feel or remind the smell of whisky.

I don’t think know is the most appropriate verb to describe the feel, but I think it helps you get what synaesthesia is not.

So, on to the dream part: when I’m dreaming, I don’t just knoe, I feel. I look at my dreamsky and I feel something silken touching me. I look at Nana and she’s not green, but there IS green, not only knowingness of green, but the colour, manifesting aitself all around.

So I would like to ask how does this synaesthesia thing work with you guys (even if you’re not waking life synesthetes).

Heh back them I did strive to make it clear in my dreams about Shin and my synæthesia. After a while I dropped it and started just narrating the cold facts, but I remember trying to make as many remarks as possible about the sky being silk or velvet and some people being allegretos while others felt more like grey tangos etc. Above all, I did record my back of mind thoughts in the dreams, that was very rich. After a while I got full of explaining my mind is weird, and started just behaving like the ordinary person… I should try to disclose those sensations more often again, especially in my dream journal. d=

My third post was in a topic regarding drugs. The post motivated a user to leave the forum. After a few months of inactivity, it was unfortunately deleted. Some of what I said there— I’m really proud of what I wrote in those posts, and I’m proud of the other users. It was a friendly discussion, very rich and reasonable, very civilized. I remember two members volunteered to stop doing drugs for a while and see how it affected their dreams. Real shame the topic is now gone.

Anyways. Those were my three first posts. Cheers. Did I change a lot?

[color=#cc3333](Heh feels funny to use my mod edit colours… )

Here’s my avatars, I think they kind of tell a story too. My first ever avatar was a dragon tattoo thing:

Which, after a few weeks, Filip kindly turned into a nicer, fancy animated version:

Back then, my username in SeaLife was Shin because I didn’t want people from LD4all to know straightaway it was the LD4all Bruno. So my first SeaLife avatar (whose image I lost) was a big ش (shin, 13th letter of the Arabic alphabet, initial of the Arabic words for “poet” and “demon”).

Later, I asked for T to transform my wallpaper into an avatar and he made this:

Accordingly, I changed my SeaLife avatar to that same Moon. After a while, some people were a bit annoyed because this avatar was slightly smaller than 80px, and looked weird under the rank image (the stars above one’s avatar), so both Fey and Q made fancy 80 px sized avatars for me. I started using Q’s version, saving Fey’s for an especial occasion which never came:

By that time, I changed my SeaLife avatar into a nicer looking shin:

When Moogle gently offered her help to change my SeaLife nick (the option is disabled by default) to Bruno, I changed my avatars again, into pictures of a writer I very much like, called Jack Kerouac:

Finally, when I dropped moderation and the Cloud was merged into the Lounge, I felt I needed to change things again. I wanted something black and blue to match my yellow stars in the rank (the black and white photo used to look cool with the colourful stars, but got rather dull against yellow). I found a brilliant pic of a bottled and a cloud, which was most appropriate, considering Q had given me a bottled piece of the Philosopher’s Cloud in the topic in the mod forum where we were discussing its deletion.

I also made this one a version for MSN messenger and my secret online journal:

Those things really tell a story, don’t they? Perhaps I could post my sig history too. I made post in “Why your sig?” for every signature change except for two (including the latest), explaining the motivation and the sentiment that led me to change it. Anyways. There you go. Forum history. [/color]